This week I am not posting my weight officially. I was down seven pounds. BUT, before the applause and cheering comes, I want to share how it happened.
Do NOT try this at home!!!
I didn't eat. On Monday, I literally had no food. Tuesday I had two diet cokes, and a caramel flavored coffee something or other. I didnt do this to lose weight. I did this because of stress, and I didn't know how to cope.
The last six months have been very stressful at the doctors office. I wont give any details or examples because of privacy issues. There is a person in a higher position who, when first hired four years ago, became a very good friend. Within the last six months I became aware that he was lying about me to my boss. I started documenting EVERYTHING I did that involved him.
I went to my boss, and confided in her and showed her some of my proof. She in turn confided in me that they knew he was lying (sigh of relief) and they, meaning she and her bosses, were gathering information and proof as well. He has quite a bit of responsibility and has been reprimanded and is on probation.
He continues to make my life miserable. But, I know that my job is not in jeopardy. Some days I handle it much better than others.
Several weeks ago, I wasnt able to sleep and I stopped eating. The last day of the week, I broke down in tears.
My primary job is the registration clerk, and I am the first and last person the patients sees at the office. A teary eyed person does NOT make for good PR!!!
This week, I reached my flood of tears level again.
I got 3 to 4 hours of sleep a night, and I couldnt eat. I was sick to my stomach and had to force feed myself! On Wednesday I actually passed out at work. (thankfully I work at a doctors office!!) I received a "YOU NEED TO EAT" warning, so I came home and at a pound of Chocolate Covered Peanuts. Felt absolutely horrible and ended up in the bathroom all night into the morning!!
This weigh in isnt real. It doesnt count. On Friday I was still feeling 'yucky", but I knew I had to have nourishment. I made myself some fruit smoothies, and I drank my nourishment.
I need to learn coping skills!!!
Today, Saturday, is better. I have a plan for next week. I will post it tomorrow. For now, It may only be 845 PM, but Im going to bed.