To meet someone that can relate to you, that has been in your shoes, that can understand you is awesome and Deb fits that to a “T”.
In December 2010 things changes a whole bunch for me. Before that I had lost 50 lbs, I had the world by the tail and I was happy. However things change and I didn’t roll with the punches very well and those 50 lbs I lost, most of them found me again. Not all, I got to my scream weight and had held there until my sister passed away 3 months ago and life got harder. My sister was only 49 and left behind two parents and a sister (and her 2 sons) that were devastated and so hurt that she chose her way of life over taking care of herself and having a long life with people that really loved and cared for her. And than this past August my father was diagnosed with front temporal lobe dementia which is a form of Alzheimer. And now to get my parents to eat anything I have to eat too and with both of them losing weight and getting older the foods we eat are not diet food. So that means I am above my scream weight and screaming quite loudly. With all of this came graduation from college for my son, a job that was too good to be true filled with promises that a company couldn’t keep so now a son living at home. BUT….yep there’s a but, life must move forward and my son has been rewarded with patience and now has the job of a life time, with a home he’ll be moving into shortly. My parents are doing better and moving forward with one daughter instead of two. Things are starting to fall into place, a rhythm and it’s time that I got back to where I was 3 years ago, happy, healthy and learning to take care of me to take care of everyone else.
Starting November 1st Deb and I are going to put our health first. We are going to work on getting to the place in life where numbers are good, body feels good, we feel good about us. I hate the feeling of being fat and I am fat. I have lost so much muscle tone that what was once a fairly toned body is jello. Muffin tops are mega muffin tops. My once shapely legs are lumpy and droopy. I have to many chins and cheeks that touch my glasses again. This can not remain. With a decent calorie amount, exercise 4x a week and some mediation I know very well that I can get back to where I was. It’s 27 weeks or so from November 1st to May 1st that means I can set a goal of 40 lbs to lose or 175 lbs and have a good beginning of the new me.
So as you can see I’m a mess but a mess can be fixed and I am going to try my best to fix this and Deb, my partner in crime, is going to make sure I do just that. Would you like to join us?